Ahh... $mell that? Nope! Airtime Management & Programming (AMP) Radio Networks is not such a great company to work for. It's Astro's sister company. I earn so little as a radio announcer. I can't afford to save up any money for my future. I don't even have any extras to spend on new clothes, etc. I spend my salary on room rental, car installment, life insurance, handphone bill, utility bills, petrol, toll and food. That's it. Then I have no more left for anything! It's that sad.
It was all pretty okay when I was hosting Fulus Mania until they kicked me out. They tell me not to worry because there will be other shows to come. Haha. Like they don't know that there are so many other talents out there who are more experienced and better looking!
Nevertheless, Alhamdulillah. I'm still very very thankful to Allah for whatever that I own now. It's okay if I can't afford to even buy a good mattress, let alone one whole bed to sleep on, but at least I have a place to stay, a car to get myself around, clothes to wear, a handphone, good food to eat anytime I want.
People at work often make fun of me because I don't own many shoes, jeans, sunglasses, a digital camera... I tell them I can't afford to go shopping and they laugh at me. Truth of the matter is, I get paid very very low. I have countless sleepless nights because sometimes I do wish I could buy new stuff, go out shopping and feel like a woman. I have only one bottle of perfume, and that was a gift from someone from work. I haven't used it yet because I don't want it to ever finish...
Am I being ungrateful or am I just being a normal human being? Never satisfied with what they have. I thank Allah everyday for what I have, but sometimes I can't help but feeling pretty sad about it. Then I feel guilty for feeling that way. I'm confu$ed.
