Leona Lewis - Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time

Beyonce - Me, Myself And I

All the ladies if you feel me, help me sing it out...

I can't believe i believed
Everything we had would last
So young and naive for me to think
She was from your past
Silly of me to dream of
One day having your kids
Love is so blind
It feels right when it's wrong

I can't believe i fell for your schemes
I'm smarter than that
So young and naive to believe that with me
You're a changed man
Foolish of me to compete
When you cheat with loose women
It took me some time but now i moved on

Cuz i realized i got
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend

Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend

So controlling , you said that you love me
But you don't
Your family told me one day
I would see it on my own
Next thing i know i'm dealing
With your three kids in my home
Love is so blind
It feels right when it's wrong

Now that it's over
Stop calling me
Come pick up your clothes
Ain't no need to front like you're still with me
All your homies know
Even your very best friend
Tried to warn me on the low
It took me some time
But now i am strong

Because i realized i got
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend

Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend

Me myself and i
I know that i will never disappoint myself
I must have cried a thousand times
All the ladies if you feel me
Help me sing it now
I can't regret all the times spent with you
Ya, you hurt me
But i learned a lot along the way
After all the rain
You'll see the sun come out again
I know that i will never disappoint myself

Gombak

Left-right: Darul, Dina, Azryck, Umar, Yani, Nana

Went to an open house in Gombak today and had some really good food. We snapped this photo before we left. I simply love this picture because it somehow reminds me of those pictures we used to take back in school! Haha. The background is a school anyway... Feels like we just finished our SPM or something =)

Happy Birthday Dina!

I recently turned 26 (year 09 on 2609!). I wasn't really looking forward to it because of what happened with me & my now ex-fiance, Redza. We were supposed to get married next year, at my age of 26. But..... Allah loves me and He has written this. Things happen for a reason. So, I choose to be re-born (while he chooses to be on a rebound. Haha! He is already seeing someone new). I need to turn my life around. Change to a better person, be good to myself, to the people around me, to those I love. Never to mistreat anyone. Allah gave me Redza for a reason. Being with him for 3 years has definitely taught me a whole lot of things. I admit my mistakes. Syukur, I see them. He blames me for almost everything, but I don't mind. I have forgiven myself. If he hasn't forgiven me, too bad. I've apologised a million times.

We're still in good terms. Alhamdulillah. Still very close. We still chat about work, about family, about the earthquake... Also about his new girl. I just hope he knows what he's doing. But he says he is serious about this girl. I support him & I wish both of them all the love in this world. Hopefully it's not a rebound. See, this girl also just ended things with her fiance. Around the same time Redza dumped me. Redza says they share so much in common. He opened up his heart to another girl because he was too pissed with our relationship. So, err.... maybe he's not actually entirely sure what he's doing, but they really do want to be with each other. Redza can't make it official yet because she hasn't ironed everything out with her ex. Now Redza is slightly worried that she might go back to her ex. I hope things work out well between them, InsyaAllah. All I want is to see Redza happy. Oh, today, 1st Oct, is Redza's birthday by the way!

Me, on the other hand.... I'm feeling better by the day. Pretty amazing. I didn't think it would be this soon, but after talking to Allah everyday, getting closer to Him, Alhamdulillah, I'm getting through this quite fine! And of course, with lots of support, encouragement & prayers from friends, family, colleagues, I feel calmer now.

I'm still trying to move on. Really really slowly. InsyaAllah... I will. This break-up is still new. I only need some adjustments & get used to how things have changed between us. Other than that, I'm alright. I still think of him all the time, but InsyaAllah it will go away. Deep down inside, I still love him very very much. InsyaAllah it will go away & I will love him as a very good friend.

I have so much love in me. I have to say, the man I'm meant to marry is SUPER LUCKY! Haha. May Allah bless me with a good, smart, sincere, loyal, understanding & beriman guy... who is man enough to go through rough times with me no matter what. Allah knows what's best for me :)

So, Dina - Allah selamatkan kamuUuUuUuu... Allah selamatkan kamuUuUuUuu...!!

Amzal took me out on a birthday dinner, along with Khine, Adam & Mak Tok. Some pictures:

Adam so shy..?


Ohh, now Adam isn't shy anymore!


Beloved sister in-law


Most awesome brother ever!!


Such a cool grandma ;)

Thank you so much for the great dinner Amzal!! Thank you so much for the pretty earrings Khine!! Thank you so much for being there Mak Tok!! Thank you so much for entertaining us Adam!! Love always xoxo

Ne-Yo - So Sick

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walking round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

Boyz II Men - On Bended Knee

Darlin' I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

Chorus:
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again
Until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know I don't need to be alone
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me

Chorus

Gonna swallow my pride, say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life and I want it with you
If you feel the same don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It can heal all things we won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home

Chorus

Chorus

Wanna build a new life
Just you and me
Gonna make you my wife
Raise a family

Boyz II Men - It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.